Jon G.
2017-06-01 03:00:18 UTC
I fixed my e-cigarette battery so it works now. Pretty soon I am going to taper off the stuff altogether. I just went from 21mg to 6mg. Eventually I am going down to 3mg of nicotine and then off the stuff for good. Then I'll have to work on my weight. Right now I weigh 317 pounds. I am 6'5" tall so I carry some of it well, but I need to lose about 100 pounds to be in shape. No thanks to my psychiatric medications that make me hungry, drowsy and retain weight. This has been going on for 20 years but I need it to go away in about 1.
At the meeting tonight the beast reared its head and the greenery was coming down all around me. I am the focus of the investigation. I am the target practice. I am the suspect. The beast doesn't care how but it wants to bring me down to humiliate me and for the kill. All this in a civilized fashion, a matter of fact manner and nothing trumped up. I said my piece.
I have never jumped in to making amends. It would only be me clearing my conscience at their expense. All they ever really wanted was for me to leave them alone, so I've given them all they ever really wanted and LEFT THEM ALONE. Before I got sober I was sick and did some sick stuff, said sick things and wrote sick things. After I got sober I continued to write sick things, so my psychological sobriety had to catch up with my alcoholic sobriety. I do get resentments.
I may write on the internet, but I WON'T write and mail people any letters. I have all of their addresses, their phone numbers, their email addresses. But I will send them no letters.
So there sitting 10 feet away from me was a woman I owed amends to, but to whom I could say nothing, which constituted my amends; and I said nothing.
Here is my gift to Ms. Suzie:
https://www.smkw.com/catalogsearch/result/?q=rr1378
Here is my gift to Mr. Suzie:
https://www.smkw.com/catalogsearch/result/?q=mr278
In order to receive their gifts, they need to fork out $6.99 plus postage and tax to Smoky Mountain Knife Works. Then they will have my gift to them. In the archetype of the knife, different owners of the same knife tend to equalize between them, such as filling in deficits with abundances. Due to all of the people I've been giving these knives to, there are diverse deficits and diverse abundances. For instance one guy I gave a knife to told me he doesn't carry knives and wouldn't use it. His attitude about his knife makes it a sink, a bottomless pit, the negative terminal to a battery. Everything works out with a purpose. On the other hand a woman I gave the friendship knife to appreciated it and gave me a hug. Her attitude makes her knife a source, a shining star, the positive terminal to a battery.
As I am almost out of all of these knives until I order some more, I have enough left for two more couples. One of the couples are my adversary. I am powerless over what they do with them. I may never know. When my Christmas cards get here I can mail them. I won't compromise principle and be illusive; my return address will be on the package.
At the meeting tonight the beast reared its head and the greenery was coming down all around me. I am the focus of the investigation. I am the target practice. I am the suspect. The beast doesn't care how but it wants to bring me down to humiliate me and for the kill. All this in a civilized fashion, a matter of fact manner and nothing trumped up. I said my piece.
I have never jumped in to making amends. It would only be me clearing my conscience at their expense. All they ever really wanted was for me to leave them alone, so I've given them all they ever really wanted and LEFT THEM ALONE. Before I got sober I was sick and did some sick stuff, said sick things and wrote sick things. After I got sober I continued to write sick things, so my psychological sobriety had to catch up with my alcoholic sobriety. I do get resentments.
I may write on the internet, but I WON'T write and mail people any letters. I have all of their addresses, their phone numbers, their email addresses. But I will send them no letters.
So there sitting 10 feet away from me was a woman I owed amends to, but to whom I could say nothing, which constituted my amends; and I said nothing.
Here is my gift to Ms. Suzie:
https://www.smkw.com/catalogsearch/result/?q=rr1378
Here is my gift to Mr. Suzie:
https://www.smkw.com/catalogsearch/result/?q=mr278
In order to receive their gifts, they need to fork out $6.99 plus postage and tax to Smoky Mountain Knife Works. Then they will have my gift to them. In the archetype of the knife, different owners of the same knife tend to equalize between them, such as filling in deficits with abundances. Due to all of the people I've been giving these knives to, there are diverse deficits and diverse abundances. For instance one guy I gave a knife to told me he doesn't carry knives and wouldn't use it. His attitude about his knife makes it a sink, a bottomless pit, the negative terminal to a battery. Everything works out with a purpose. On the other hand a woman I gave the friendship knife to appreciated it and gave me a hug. Her attitude makes her knife a source, a shining star, the positive terminal to a battery.
As I am almost out of all of these knives until I order some more, I have enough left for two more couples. One of the couples are my adversary. I am powerless over what they do with them. I may never know. When my Christmas cards get here I can mail them. I won't compromise principle and be illusive; my return address will be on the package.