spiny urchin
2015-04-18 03:03:11 UTC
This Carolyn kick has fallen by the wayside. If she's not dead it's as
though she were dead anyway. I never prayed she die, only that I be avenged
of her, even though I wanted her dead. Certain things that I put in God's
hands I have no control over. I don't know what He did. The place in me
she once exploited to hurt me has been filled up with something else.
She'll have to find her playground elsewhere.
When I was overseas she and her father Jack had me where they wanted me.
Jack was an experienced traveler and knew how to pull some strings. I
fought back and made it home anyway. How I made it out of that mess I'll
never know, but it was one passage of Scripture that did it. I read it,
practiced it and I escaped captivity. Jack would use the remainder of his
life to assault and persecute me further, but I was home and it was on my
terms. He couldn't prevail and died. In 2006 I discovered my classmate had
gone missing in 1981, the year of my suicide attempt. The mystery of her
disappearance dovetailed with Jack and Carolyn again. There is nothing I
can do about that, but I know there is her blood on their hands. All the
world is more than just a stage, people are more than just players and Jack
couldn't lecture his way out of it. He died to salvage his name, but
ultimately it couldn't save Carolyn, who went from a tiger to a mouse. She
has a murder hanging over her. No crafty lie can get her out of it. Maybe
she'd like to go through what she put her victims through to understand the
damage she's done and dig her way out of it like her victims have had to.
Her lies have left a path of hurt and death. She stands responsible and
accountable for all of them.
Sandy's firstborn is soon to turn 18 and the time is ripe to get to the
bottom of it. Who is their father? Sandy was in trouble and I did her a
favor. Now it's time for her to return the favor. Or would she like to be
charged, convicted and incarcerated like she put me through? I can go to
the prosecutor's office and lay it all out. In fact I already have reported
them to the sheriff years ago.
The mental health of a teen doesn't have to depend on who their biological
father is, but with multiple possibilities it can take a toll on them. It
can be confusing for them. This problem must be addressed and solved for
the optimal mental health of the teen. I'm afraid that my wants or Sandy's
wants don't matter. Sandy can't prevail by treating the child like she
treated me. The child isn't her scapegoat or excuse to collect child
support and alimony from a false father.
Jack and Carolyn didn't succeed in killing all the people they wanted. Our
deaths were supposed to be the hallmark of their agenda for ironically world
peace. But they procrastinated and lost. It didn't turn out their way. It
turned out another way. Someone else will be the judge, jury and
executioner in eternity. It won't be them. They enjoyed that roll while
they were living, spent it up and didn't share a single iota of it with the
deserving. They hoarded it in greed until death hoarded them in hunger.
That's what became of Jack and Carolyn.
Sandy is now protected from them, so part of my work is done.
though she were dead anyway. I never prayed she die, only that I be avenged
of her, even though I wanted her dead. Certain things that I put in God's
hands I have no control over. I don't know what He did. The place in me
she once exploited to hurt me has been filled up with something else.
She'll have to find her playground elsewhere.
When I was overseas she and her father Jack had me where they wanted me.
Jack was an experienced traveler and knew how to pull some strings. I
fought back and made it home anyway. How I made it out of that mess I'll
never know, but it was one passage of Scripture that did it. I read it,
practiced it and I escaped captivity. Jack would use the remainder of his
life to assault and persecute me further, but I was home and it was on my
terms. He couldn't prevail and died. In 2006 I discovered my classmate had
gone missing in 1981, the year of my suicide attempt. The mystery of her
disappearance dovetailed with Jack and Carolyn again. There is nothing I
can do about that, but I know there is her blood on their hands. All the
world is more than just a stage, people are more than just players and Jack
couldn't lecture his way out of it. He died to salvage his name, but
ultimately it couldn't save Carolyn, who went from a tiger to a mouse. She
has a murder hanging over her. No crafty lie can get her out of it. Maybe
she'd like to go through what she put her victims through to understand the
damage she's done and dig her way out of it like her victims have had to.
Her lies have left a path of hurt and death. She stands responsible and
accountable for all of them.
Sandy's firstborn is soon to turn 18 and the time is ripe to get to the
bottom of it. Who is their father? Sandy was in trouble and I did her a
favor. Now it's time for her to return the favor. Or would she like to be
charged, convicted and incarcerated like she put me through? I can go to
the prosecutor's office and lay it all out. In fact I already have reported
them to the sheriff years ago.
The mental health of a teen doesn't have to depend on who their biological
father is, but with multiple possibilities it can take a toll on them. It
can be confusing for them. This problem must be addressed and solved for
the optimal mental health of the teen. I'm afraid that my wants or Sandy's
wants don't matter. Sandy can't prevail by treating the child like she
treated me. The child isn't her scapegoat or excuse to collect child
support and alimony from a false father.
Jack and Carolyn didn't succeed in killing all the people they wanted. Our
deaths were supposed to be the hallmark of their agenda for ironically world
peace. But they procrastinated and lost. It didn't turn out their way. It
turned out another way. Someone else will be the judge, jury and
executioner in eternity. It won't be them. They enjoyed that roll while
they were living, spent it up and didn't share a single iota of it with the
deserving. They hoarded it in greed until death hoarded them in hunger.
That's what became of Jack and Carolyn.
Sandy is now protected from them, so part of my work is done.